*~*~*AFI Lyrics*~*~*
Below are lyrics that you can find from AFI's
very first album "Answer that and stay fashionable" to their sixth
full length album "Sing The Sorrow".
Answer That and Stay Fashionable
Two Of A Kind
Hangin' out and lingerin' around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and
I don't know how
you do it. This obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit. My solidarity
now only comes
in pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me. I'd like to see you. I'd
like to see you leave.
Showered by torrential praise, why it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave
yield no avail. For
me I don't know what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve
what I get, have
nothing to return.
Half-Empty Bottle
The ends don't always justify the means, but I know what it takes to get
what I need. I've got
the cure when passive protest just wont do...just flick my Bic as I hold
it to the fuse. Smash it
up. Break it down. Bring it down, down to the ground. Tear it up,. Burn
it down. Burn it
down, down to the ground. How long have we waited for the day when they
tighten their grips
and we slip away? The sound of breaking glass drives me back up. It makes
me whole when
I've been down on my luck.
Yürf Rendenmein
You keep on sayin' that you want to know me but you never show me your
true self. How can
you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're going to do is
just pretend that
you're someone else? You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're
really different,
but your just the same. If you're really mindless then there is no way
that I can win, maybe
you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game. You lie to yourself
and remain alone. I'm
not exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin'
to do. All I'm
really sure is that you're not too impressive and you're wearin' a mask
that I can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe you're striving for something
more. If it's
status that you lust then why try to be one of us? You're someone we'll
never trust 'cause we
know the score.
I Wanna Get A Mohawk (But Mom Wont Let Me Get One)
I may be ten years old but I still know what's up. I wear my Cramps shirt
almost every single
day. I want to sag my pants. I want to pogo dance, but mom won't let me
so I might just run
away. I wanna ride my skate. I wanna stay out late. I want a mohawk but
mom won't let me
get one. I wanna go to shows. Don't wanna pierce my nose. I want a mohawk
but mom won't
let me get one. I may be in fourth grade, but I know what's going on. I
listen to the Misfits
almost every single day. Don't want to take a nap. I want a TV tat, but
mom won't let me so I
might just disobey.
Brownie Bottom Sundae
Into the dark is where you're draggin' me and into your dark is where I
never want to be. I
know I'm not alone and I really want to leave. Into the dark is where you
want to watch me
bleed. I'm feelin' kinda trapped, I gotta go. I'm feelin' kinda trapped
don't you know. I'm feelin'
kinda trapped I gotta go. I gotta go. I'm being dragged down, for how long,
I don't know. I'm
being dragged down and I rise up way too slow. I know I don't belong here
and I think I ought
to go. I hope that I can leave here, leave here with my soul.
The Checkered Demon
Too much to find, so much so little time. So many images persist to shade
my mind. Will I
ever come around or will I just hit the ground? Will I still be standing
when it all comes
down? Why can't I seem to sort it out? Why am I always filled with doubt?
So many people
everywhere, so self absorbed without a care. Of their viral lives, I'd
like to bleed them all.
When all is drained, who shall hold? When mindless bodies screw tortured
souls, will
somebody be there to catch me when I fall? Why can't I seem to sort it
out. Why am I always
filled with doubt. How could I always be so blind? Why can't I figure it
out. I could always
hope for change, could always hope to rearrange. But why not just abandon
hope and tear it all
apart now?
Cereal Wars
Get up early in the morning, going to the store. Post, Kellogs, General
Mills? It's the cereal
war. Fuckin' store never has the monsters and they never get more. Post,
Kellogs, General
Mills? It's the cereal war. I hope sexual chocolate is in stock, it's got
a condom in the box. I'll
try some cocoa puffs today. What the fuck is Sonny anyway? Some say Dino's
are the best,
they've got more marshmallows than the rest. There's not a lot of cocoa
in cocoa crispies, and
always stay away from wheaties. Now it's dinner time and I'm going back
to the store. I had
some Erkles, 'liked 'em a lot. It's the cereal war. I wish I were Calvin
or Hobbes and then I
could try sugar bombs. The soggies will never get Cap'n Crunch, I guess
I'll have Crunch
Berries for lunch. Breakfast cereals need to be sweet, that's the only
kind I'll eat. Give me sugar
not nuts and twigs! Do I look like a fuckin' squirrel to you?
The Mother In Me
Caught in a world that's plagued by something they called love. A paradigm
of illness is the
beast I have become. The sights that I have seen could nearly bring me
to my knees. I've seen
exactly what it is I never want to be, but I keep it deep inside myself.
It's within me. Keep it
deep within yourself and sink with me. Last night I had the misfortune
to see it all first hand.
"Evacuate the premises" was the innate first command. What drives the need
for all of this?
And will I ever understand? Has someone failed to tell me of this master
plan? But I keep it
deep inside myself. It's within me. Keep it deep within yourself and sink
with me.
Rizzo In The Box
I'm always around you to show that I care but I don't know what for. It
seems to me that you
couldn't care less so I'm not going to do it anymore. I see no reason why
I've placed such a
value on you, but my thoughts have changed now, I've opened my eyes and
now I'm through.
Lookin' back at my short life, the few pleasures that I've found, all your
misconceptions
pummel me into the ground. Now, I look at your small life and it doesn't
mean a bit. I pick
myself up off the ground 'cause I don't give a shit. They say all good
things come to an end, I
wish this didn't apply. You were once someone I called my friend but that's
all now changed
and I don't know why. Things are very different now. You've got nothing
to say. It' s sad when
someone you know very well decides to fuckin' die and go away.
Kung-Fu Devil
It's said and done, there is no turning back. I've made my choice, now
I've gotta face the facts.
Within myself, the hunger won't be subdued, because I can't have my cake
and eat it to. I'm
worn down from fighting with myself. I'll save my life and lose my mental
health. I'm
wiggin' out, everything is turnin' round. A bitter taste - no comfort can
be found. An
emptiness wells inside of me, there's no filling the void that will always
be. A self control is
all I have to hold. It's been too long. Maybe I have been to bold? When
you're bound by your
own conviction a discipline can be your addiction. I'm warn down from fighting
with myself.
I'll save my life and lose my mental health. I've gone this far so I'll
keep tryin'. Continue to
fight, hope that I don't end up dying.
Your Name Here
It's the same old situation, it seems it's coming 'round again. I wont
play the fool, I'm not
screwin' around. I only play to win. I only want what I deserve so who
are you tryin' to kid?
You can call it like you see it but I call it like it is. I'm sick of shruggin'
off your petty little
ways. The names are always changing, in the end it's just a game. We're
runnin' in a circle, a
never ending chase, you keep on steppin' out of reach but you won't win
the race. No more
waitin' around, no more hangin' around , no more draggin' me down. Everything's
so easy for
you but I've struggled to get this far. I'm alone in the fight. What's
wrong, whose right? I take
it all to heart. Your true colors start to show. You call yourself a friend?
The teams are drawn,
you chose your side, you'll get yours in the end. You play along to the
same old song just as
long as you can win, when someone better comes along, you're too cool to
let them in. So
now I've got you wonderin' if I've got it in for you. I'd like to tell
you different but I can't
because it's true.
Ny-quil
Sleep. I want to stay in bed all throughout the day, no one bother me.
I don't wanna open my
eyes. I'll lie here in my room. I have no need to see. No one wake me I
just want to stay in
bed. No one move me I just want to lie right here, right in my warm bed.
'cause I don't want
to see tomorrow. Here I am so happy, so just leave me be. I just want to
stay. I do not bother
you so don't you touch me. Get the fuck away!
Don't Make Me Ill
Right now we've got a reason to live but it's got nothing to do with you.
We've got a lot of
places we're gonna go, a lot of things that we're gonna do. In your world
we may be no one,
but what makes you think you're someone? We have got just what we need
and we don't need
you. No one. I can tell where our future lies, and you can tell we've got
nothing to hide. The
way things seem to me right now, everything will be just fined. We're going
to do it all our
way. We don't need you to darken our day. We've never given up before and
this stand won't be
our first time. No one's gonna tell me, I'm gonna do it my way. No one's
gonna tell me how
to get it done.
High school Football Hero
Wanna be a high school football hero with an S.A.T. score less then zero.
I wanna try to drink
my weight in beer. I wanna be a high school football hero. Wanna score
a touchdown so I can
score after the game. Don't care about my future 'cause it is just another
day. I'll rush for forty
yards and drink four forties later on. I'm done with this brunette, someone
pass another blonde.
Wanna be a high school football hero with an S.A.T score less than zero.
I wanna try to drink
my weight in beer. I wanna be a highschool football hero. My coach tells
me to drink my
milk and wash it down with 'roids. I've gotta get my rest so I can party
with the boys. My
brain's put in upside-down so I'm just a little slow. I'll change my name
to Bubba so that
everyone will know I wanna be a high school football hero.
Self-Pity (Vinyl Only)
I'm always short on cash and my mind is in the trash. I can't find a way
to get my head out of
my ass. I'm gettin' skinny as a bone 'cause I'm always stuck at home. I'm
living my life all
fucked up and alone. So once again, alone in my room, my only apparent
future is my
unhappy doom. So I just whine all the fucking time. I'm hooked bad on caffeine,
unless I get
it I'm mean. I can't remember last when I was chipper and clean. I'm going
insane, all I do is
complain. The only traits I show are depression and disdain. The girl I
love is going away,
there is no way that she'll stay. I don't know how I'm gonna live my life
this way. Don't want
to have to try, I'll just sit around and cry. Maybe, if I get lucky, I'll
just fuckin' die.
Key Lime Pie (Vinyl Only)
Key lime. Infatuation that shouldn't exist. Key lime Pie. Indulge and I
am in your debt. Key
lime pie. Inspire me with foolish love. Key lime pie, your green filling
makes me inept.
Flaky crust is what I lust. Your fresh lime scent is a must. Take me with
coffee, never with
tea. You're the pie that pleases me! People gawk "Is that pie green?" Ask
for a bite - "Fuck
you, I'm mean." Key lime pie - cheapest hooker I've ever had. Key lime
pie. Last slice
gleaming, if you're out I'm mad. Key lime pie. Poke fun and laugh and jest.
Key lime pie.
Don't bother me, digest key lime pie.
Very Proud of Ya
No Dave Party (Instrumental)
He Who Laughs Last...
NO TRUST can be given freely, its' a valuable commodity, but obviously
this is something
you've never learned. Faith is something that you put in friends, and had
I excess morals to
lend, I'd let you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned. We've got
a problem? First of
all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely. I've got a problem.
You tell lies to my
friends and think it won't get back to me. NO BOND can ever seem to make
a stable fit in our
relationship, but one thing that never comes between us is honesty. When
you have
something to say, you always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead,
avoid me.
STRAIGHT UP is how you'll see me stand, but it is never in your plans to
be straight
forward, so instead, you use deceit. Now I would like to take apart what
you've been breaking
from the start. I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat. NO TRUST!
File 13
I sleep until there is no light. I'm wide awake all through the night.
Diner may suck but I'll
take a bite, I do whatever I can. My muscles stiffen through the day. Discomfort
never goes
away. I feel like a garbage can. Throw me away, I've got no use. Throw
me away, I'm nothing
to lose. Throw me away, I feel like shit. I am useless. I know I know nothing
at all. I'd take
stand, but I know I'd fall. I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my
blood run faster. Girls
laugh and pass me on the street. I spook out everyone I meet. I've got
pink toenails on my
feet, I'm such a fucking master. I never seem to feel well. I always seem
to look like hell. It
seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb. My mom thinks I wear
women's
clothes. I get dogged on at all the shows. It seems that everybody know
I look like a fucking
bum.
Wake-Up Call
If I had my way I'd wish them all away, but I can't find the magic inside
of me. I'll give my
best, 'cause I can give no more, but your problems aren't solved so easily.
I'm not someone
that you should run to. I've been, often, as broken as you, more often
than you'd like me to. If
I could heal all the pain that you feel, I'd gladly cure all that ails
you inside. Unfortunately, I
have no degree and I can not anesthetize. I wish that I could help you.
I can't even help myself.
It seems you need a saving grace and a savior's something I'm not.
Cult Status
I'll turn you on and switch you right off. I'll make sure you like what
you see. Forget all that
you cone believed. Now you will believe in me. Do you believe you make
the choice, decide
what you hold most dear? In all opinions that you voice, it's my voice
that they all hear. I'll
take you ideas and your values, I'll make you turn them all around. I'll
break your
individuality, I'll take you down. I'll seal shut your open eyes. I'll
give you a taste on the
bland. Intoxicate you, take me in. You'll never feel the touch of my hand.
I'll turn you on and
switch you right off. I'll soothe your troubled mind. You'll never have
to think again, it's just
a matter of lost time.
Perfect Fit
What was it I was thinking, or was I even thinking at all? When I think
of what I thought
back then, then I'm ashamed; and I'm appalled that I gave up all I was
so easily. Living your
life is not for me. I won't be sedated, I won't be sedated! Give me a little
taste and I know I
won't want more. I won't be sedated, stability is overrated. Give me the
disorder I adore. I can't
be a part, be a part, I can't be a part. I can't be a part, be a part of
your modern world. I've gotta
be apart, be apart, I've gotta be apart. I've gotta be apart. I can't grasp
the values that you hold.
What was it you were thinking, or were you even thinking at all? When I
think of what you
thought of me, I take offense; and I'm appalled that you could discount
all I love so easily.
Living our life is not for me.
Advances In Modern Technology
Every night I walk the streets, awake while everyone else sleeps. I'm giving
unease to anyone
I meet. My generosity can never runout, because I give a gift from what's
within myself. No
hope at all. Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left. I
can't recall. I can't recall
a moment in my life when life was at it's best. Everyone avoids my stare
and no one cares to
ever dare to look into my eyes of what they most fear. And they're taught
to fear, to fear no
evil. And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves. Forever
unlucky, 'cause I'll
own tomorrow. Forever unwanted, outcast today. I'm not mislead, I've got
no one to follow.
Everywhere to go, no place to stay.
Theory Of Revolution
Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day. Corrupted innocence
just doesn't seem to
fade away. Spoiled so young, you know it's bound to last, but when you're
living in the city,
you've gotta grow up fast. And it makes me sick, God, it makes me sick.
Don't want to think
about it, but I see it every day. If you want to buy affluence, your soul
you'll have to pay.
Wasting away the prime of your life, but it's been done that way for years,
so you know it
must be all right. Don't wanna think about it, but I see it every day.
With every sip and every
shot, mind and bodies fade away. Friends are all gone, and memories don't
last, but when
you've fallen off the wagon, you seem to fall so damn fast.
This Secret Ninja
Just like cellophane, you try to cling so tight to me, but your attempt's
in vain. You've less
sincerity than the plastic. Paper in rain. The print appears so bright
to me. The words remain.
I hold it to the light, I see right through. So eager to say, "hello",
but you don't know me.
You just know what you see. Pay the price to see the show but you don't
own me. Before you
knew would you have felt the same? Just when I'm inspired, you drain the
drive right outta
me, and even when I'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement. Just
like raging fire,
you burn what's left inside of me and to fulfill your desire, I'd give
you light till I burned out.
Just when you start to smile, I look into your eyes and see your veiled
denial to express any
real emotion. Just wait around a while, you'll lose what you once had for
me. I'll be out of
style, I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned.
Soap-Box Derby
I'm not angry, I'm just amused at your quest for attention through your
self abuse. The only
response that you get for your pleasis sorely less than sympathy. What
reason is there to be
alive? When the word is against you how can you survive? All your friends
are apathetic at
best, and your entire life is a total mess. GIVE IT A FUCKING REST. You
can't feel me,
feel, I'm scarred so deep. No one needs me. Could you please leave me alone?
I'm sorry to hear
that your world's sinking fast and you've lost your stable ground and I'm
sorry to add to your
disappointment, but I won't be brought down. I'm not angry, I'm just amused
at all the
dramatics you love to use, but one thing I have noticed that is strange
to me is that you're not
content until you're brought down, and you're always so alone because you
can't be found.
You're soul is black and you're filled with hate. How much more can you
possible take? GIVE
ME A FUCKING BREAK
Aspirin Free
There's no hope of helping us, we've only just begun. We're youth eternal,
nothing more to
become. A thousand lights are burning from both ends. We're proud of reputations
we all own.
Together forever. Rejected but never alone. Together forever. I'd purify
the world with one
primal scream, but no one would listen. Keep dark secrets to myself, because
no one else will
talk to me. It's hard for me to comprehend, they couldn't understand all
the thoughts going
through our heads. With a smile they tore us up, now look what we've become.
Finally we are
numb. No need to. No need to feel. I've got a nothingness and that's all
that's real. No need to
cut the numbness inside. No need to. No need to hear. What you've got to
say means nothing
at all. I've got no distance left to fall.
Fishbowl
I'm here today, just like every yesterday. Heavy heat, and sheets stick
to my skin. Can't get
away from nothingness. I try to get up, but I have to give in to the force
that is keeping me
down. I overcome gravity, I look outside. A cat cries out, trapped upon
a window sill, but is
crying's drowned out by my screaming inside. What will it take? I wonder
what it's like
exposed outside, would I be safe? When will it break. Try to look out,
I see reflection I just
want to break. Sirens moan. They're forever crying...someone's probably
dying. The sound
sticks inside my head. Talk to myself, I'm company, but who is to say if
nothing if said? Two
windows stare back at me. Three stories high nothing is new. I may sit,
but someday I'll
stand. I'll muster up the will and fire myself through.
Charles Atlas
You've seen it all a thousand times, you've heard it all before. You've
danced the steps, you
wrote the rhymes. So passé, too many times, but you're hollow at
the core. Two generations
past you by. You think there's nothing left. But look around and you will
see what our world
has grown to be. We are the now, not the past. Can't you even try to see
the strength with
which we've built ourselves to be. I know that you will never be able to
destroy what it's
meant to me. You've never seen the likes of us. We are your novelty. A
brand new trend with
mass appeal, don't like the truth, don't like what's real. You're jumping
into something you'll
never understand. You think that it's a passing phase. It's our entire
life. You revel in
rebellious ways, rebellion that the media made. When you change your channel,
we'll smash
your T.V.
Crop Tub
You say you want to be friends, start over, try again? Well, things will
never be the way they
were back then. Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you
that way. Now, if
you take one step closer I will take two steps away. Maybe you need affection,
I'd like to help
you but I can't stand when you're around: fuck you very much. Maybe you
need to talk, but
you betrayed my trust. Friends was not good enough? Fuck You Very Much.
You can always
claim you're straightedge, go ahead and dye your hair. You won't get more
attention from me,
'cause I will never fucking care. I try to remain secret, shooting away
and hiding out, but you
always track me down. Open your eyes and figure it out. I'm not trying
again. I'm sick of
seeing you. Don't wanna be your friend. I wish you'd go away.
Consult My Lover
You've got something to say, or so you say to me, then you receive a blank
stare. You've got
something to say of importance and gosh, that's really good to hear. I'm
proud of you, so
proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you. You've got something
S.P. - some to
show to me. Well, I have seen it before. I can't compete, I can't impress
you. I guess I'll show
you the door.
Take The Test
When it comes the time that you have recognized your line and you realize
the path that you
will travel through your life, be sure that what you want is exactly what
you're trying to get,
or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that... Before you
know, the haze makes
you slow ignore your future, forget your past - before you know, cars start
to crash. There are
so many choices, the opportunities abound. Just to be sure to keep things
straight and be sure
to stand your ground. Let nothing shade your vision, even fight to keep
it clear. Let no one
change what's right for you, for when you start to veer cars start to crash.
Two Of A Kind
Hanging out and lingering around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and
I don't know how
you do it. This obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit. My solidarity
now only comes
pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me. I'd like to see you. I'd
like to see you leave.
Showered be torrential praise, why it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave
yield no avail. For
me I don't know what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve
what I get, I've
nothing to return.
Shatty Fatmas
Don't care to hear what you heard. I won't believe a single word. Don't
care to hear what you
say. I won't believe it anyway. You relay fiction, facts you avoid. You're
just like a fucking
tabloid, you can never seem to get your information straight. Tell me something
I don't know.
Your information's fucking faux. Don't you have somewhere to go? Your mouth
is quick,
your mind is slow. Don't want to know what you know. I just want you to
fucking go. Don't
want to know what you believe. I just wish that you would leave. You try
to cajz everyday, I
wish that you would get away. You can never seem to get your information
straight. When
you try to hang around, I'd really like to push you down. When you try
to understand, I don't
really think that you can.
Yürf Redenmein
You keep on sayin' that you want to know me but you never show me your
true self. How can
you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're going to do is
just pretend that
you're someone else? You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're
really different,
but your just the same. If you're really mindless then there is no way
that I can win, maybe
you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game. You lie to yourself
and remain alone. I'm
not exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin'
to do. All I'm
really sure is that you're not too impressive and you're wearin' a mask
that I can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe you're striving for something
more. If it's
status that you lust then why try to be one of us? You're someone we'll
never trust 'cause we
know the score.
Cruise Control
I will never want to date you while I can
learn to hate you. If you somehow learn to love me,
well, that's just my luck. I would never care if you only wanted my friendship,
but somehow
you're disappointed that I'm not a slut. I don't want to fuck you, so fuck
you. In my mind there
is no doubt that you've been in and out of many different backseats, many
times before. I can
always see your defeat when I won't leave the front seat. And it seems
your disappointed that
I'm not a whore.
Modern Epic
Yeah I can see it coming. I've seen it all before. I've seen it once or
twice and now I hear it call
to board. This train is moving fast but how long is it gonna last. I guess
that we'll find out as
well go in through the out door. Don't ever let go. Is this the start?
Is this the end? New faces
ask, "what's happening?" I bite my tongue and hold my breath and tell them,
"the same old
thing." I don't know what's going, on but I don't wanna do it wrong. Don't
wanna contradict
myself with all the words I sing.
Who said you could touch me? (Vinyl Only)
You don't know I am so, you can not get close to me and I don't know who
you are, so just
leave me alone. I know you can't believe the anxiety you're causing me
adn I know you can't
believe your fake compassion I don't need. Get away from me, You're standing
too close. Keep
your hands off of me. Keep away from me, Just leave me alone, who said
you could touch me
anyway? Don't try to rub my shoulders and don't try to hold my hand. Don't
try to give me a
fucking hug. You crawl on me as if I were you very best of friends. I don't
even know your
name.
Rolling Balls (Vinyl Only)
Bowling is my life and it has always been my dream to be a member of the
local bowling
team, but I'm not very good. The guys won't accept me, I guess I try the
girls team and lose a
part of my anatomy then balls will roll. I think I want to be... Balls
will roll, I think it's
time, it's timefor me to be a girl. It's a very big decision, it's going
to change my life. I'll
have to make all new friends, I 'm gonna lose my wife. But that's okay
with me. There's
something in my soul. It doesn't matter who's the better man, it the man
who gets to bowl. I
've made my decision , I'm gonna make the change. There will be rolling
balls, I'm gonna play
my game. It's gonna be so great. It's gonna be the best, besides, I've
always told myself I look
good in a dress. I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna
cut'em off. I'll never
have to cough. Now I've made my change and I've fulfilled my dream. I'm
now a member of
the women's bowling team. I hope I throw a strike, 'cause I'll never score
again. My first game
is tomorrow, I will go to play and then...
Love is a Many-Splendored Thing (Vinyl Only)
You think you've got the looks, you think you've got the fashion. You thought
you'd have me
wanting more, but don't like my reaction. You think you're really something.
You're nothing
to me now. You thought you'd keep me coming without ever thinking how.
I hate you You
think you're really special. You think I think you're best. You think you're
really something?
You're no better than the rest. You've got everything you wanted. Don't
let yourself be fooled.
You thought that you could play the game, but I just changed the rules.
Shut Your Mouth and Open Your Eyes
Keeping Out Of Direct Sunlight (An Introduction)
We are the ones with the radiating eyes. We are the ones who have a fire
inside. We are the
ones only we can recognize. We've been rejected (we've been rejected)-
Suffered the ignorance,
suffered the selfishness, been pushed so far down now comes our time to
surface. Turn from
the light, that made them all go blind. We've been protected (we've been
protected) ALL
ARISE TO WHAT WE BRING, OUTSTRETCHED HANDS, UNFOLDED WINGS. We've
hurt ourselves, and I feel the sting of broken hearts and burning wings...
Three Reasons
Where were you? Say you were gone? Well, ask me and I'll swear you were
there all along.
Another place? Another state? At any rate, I can't relate. There's no two
ways, you're a
disgrace. Drown down your fear, suffocate every spark of clarity. Your
weakness: sickens me,
saddens me, strengthens me. There's no way to free responsibility. Who's
to blame? Who's in
the wrong? The truth from which you hide - it was you all along. You were
there, you didn't
care, and your heart and mind were self-impaired. Now, all that's left
is our despair.
A Single Second
Oh my God! My God this can't be happening! God tell me, tell me this isn't
real! I can't
believe all that I have foreseen is finally happening. I cannot for a single
second stand the way
I feel. I always knew. I always saw it coming. Enveloped now, encased by
my worst fear. I've
never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, I never wanted to cease
to exist, just
disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead. Never have I felt so lost.
Memories dull my
senses. Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, no I'm
fucking freezing. I am the once embraced abandoned one. I raised my eyes
up to the light in
hopes of finding healing; no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun.
pH Low
So quickly draining away. If you could only hear all the things you used
to say. Consumed
now by what you knew was poisonous, quenching your thirst for life (for
life.) Will you die
for me? Will you live for me? Kill aspirations away. Embrace a dream that
was a nightmare
only yesterday. True friends forgotten and all hopes been traded in, exchanged
for what. For
what? All at once, all is lost. All is lost.
Let It Be Broke
I live in truth, complacently. Where's the threat you see in me? Am I the
cause of your
Self-consciousness? You scream at me 'cause I can't ignore the destructiveness
that you
support, 'cause my life's contrary to yours. No soft words from my mouth.
A glazed look in
your eyes. I live in the world of reality, you comfort yourself with lies.
I will release myself, I
will detach myself from you. I will detach myself from you kind. I've seen
your life but I can't
see how it is that you can be so content in your own ignorance. Its been
so dark for so long
now a new light has come along, illuminating all, so shut your eyes. I
won't tell you what
you want to hear, I will show you what's real. I will, will defy.
Third Season
Can you feel the pulse? Can you feel the heat rising from below? Can you
feel the energy
gaining strength, oh so slowly? But I'll wait...I'll wait...till the seasons
change. I'll wait...I'll
wait... till the fall comes. And I'll give you a mirthless laugh. Can you
see the signs? Can
you see the changing of the winds? Can you see the stillness in the air?
Calm will remain...oh
so shortly. But I'll wait...till the seasons change. I'll wait...till the
fall comes.
Lower Your Head And Take It In The Body
Drowned in flames is where I can be found, my nose broke from being smashed
into the
ground. What a waste, this place I call my home. Escape this place and
break out on my own!
I'm still reaching. Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. In the fray
is where I can be found.
My head is bruised from always being knocked around. What a fight, this
life I call my own!
Escape this life, and break out on my own! I'm still reaching! Try to slap
me down, but I'll
still hold. I'll hold my own.
Coin Return
I have slipped and I have fallen so far down I can't get out. Overwhelmed
by my doubt. Things
I said I'd never do I've done. Those I said I'd never be I've become. I
have broken - I'm still
breaking - cracked and wrecked, beyond repair. Smacks me in the face every
time I fall. I
cannot disregard, with each new fall I hit twice as hard. Would you be
there for me? I would.
Would you look up to see? I would. falling forward and looking up.
The New Patron Saints And Angels
I've seen the light that emanates from you, and it makes me feel proud,
a voice of reason above
the muffling crowds. Such will to live and you've got so much to give,
long lost sincerity.
Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself until I finally
find. A guide in
you, and gratitude is mine, I admire the way you shine. Stare down the
day from which others
shield their eyes, with complete clarity, and no trace of apathy. So positive,
and your heart you
freely give, long lost vivacity. Lost in a world that's been scorched to
black. Lost in myself
until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine, I admire the
way you shine.
Three Seconds Notice
Submission - My back hurts from bowing down. Attraction - Was once so strong
now can't be
found. Affection - One gift I wish you would return. Frustration - as I
accede. I do not deserve
your frigidness, such callousness, yet I persist. What's wrong with me?
I told you "you can't
be replaced", you showed me I'm disposable. Spit in my face, as I submit,
so I
quit!-----repeated again
Salt For Your Wounds
There's a tear in my heart where the blood ran out. There's a tear in my
heart where the love
ran out. I thought we worked, pushed toward the same ends, I'll never be
so quick to trust
again. Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith.
My faith in you, you
poisoned me through and through. I though we both shared the same injuries.
Now I've found
it's you who injures me. My heart is cracked from being left out in the
cold. I know you'll pay
for what you've taken - tenfold. Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that
I trusted. I put my faith.
My faith in them, they twisted the knife further in.
Today's Lesson (Originally by Filth)
Heres your lesson for today, better listen up real fucking good! My cloud
always has a silver
lining, and I love all that I see. My world is wonderful and noone could
ever hurt me. (2x) You
hate yourself, yes you do, and thats why right now I hate you. You hate
yourself, yes you do,
and thats why right now I can't stand you. Have you learned your lives
lesson yet? No, well let
me tell you something. I am your teacher you have a lot to learn from me-you
must love
yourself. You are my teacher you teach me about my life. Theres a lot I
can learn from you.
And thats why right now I love you... So fuck you!
The Devil Loves You
Do you understand what I'm trying to say? Have you ever felt? Have you
ever felt this way?
Tainted with rage you can't drain away or it will cost you your life. I
couldn't care now. Do
you ever absorb what shouldn't be touched? Have you ever cared? Ever cared
this much? Do
you think it is I who is out of touch, or are you too scared to think at
all? I couldnâ€t care
more. As your friends fall does it tear your heart? Do tears fill your
eyes as your world falls
apart? Do you notice at all, or are you sailing sublime? Am I completely
alone?
Triple Zero
It burns! It burns! It burns my neck and throat, but I need no antidote.
Gnawing and tearing at
my insides - seething, keeping me alive - hatred poisons me through and
through - a
sustenance - keeping me true. It's not too late. It's never gonna be too
late. Embrace your hate.
The pain! The pain it crushes me. I gain animosity. Acid sweat and bloody
tears, through it all
I preserve. Some sedate through indifference but I withheld zero tolerance.
A Fire Inside
3 1/2
Open wounds in the palms of my hands, festering through infectious time.
I feel so faint as
my life spills over you. Backstep over glass as I repent. I fear I can't
prevent myself from
spilling your life all over me. I'm so sick, so sick of myself. Mother,
say you'll pray for me.
I'm premature in my decay. Shards of glass swimming in my eyes. A small
voice in the back
of my mind that's whispering words I never want to hear. I pray that you
won't hesitate, as
you watch me degenerate, to reach in my wounds and extract all of my fear.
My suffocation,
asphyxiation. I've been choking on my own blood. I'm so sick, so sick of
myself. Mother, say
you'll pray for me.
Over Exposure
I have seen ten roses bleed, seen new petals fall, I have felt my soul
tear. I have felt nothing at
all. Watched what was vibrant fade as shadows fall.I can see it's been
done, all that was pure
has been eradicated. I can see, it's all done. Nothing can erase the damage
done. I have seen ten
liars love, seen two lovers like, seen youth, blinded, smiling. I have
seen deceit handed down.
From the highest height, below the lowly. I can see it's been done, all
that was pure has been
eradicated. I can see, it's all done. Nothing can erase the damage done.
I have seen beast bathed
in glory, tread across the angels as they crawl. Take it all away. Regress
to nothing. Can
someone please take these images from my mind?
The Hanging Garden (Originally by The Cure)
Creatures kissing in the rain, Shapeless in the dark again. In the hanging
garden, Please don't
speak. In the hanging garden, No one sleeps. Catching haloes on the moon,
Gives my hands
the shapes of angels. In the heat of the night, The animals scream. In
the heat of the night,
Walking into a dream... Fall fall fall fall, Into the walls. Jump jump
out of time. Fall fall fall
fall, Out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals cry, In the hanging
garden. Creatures
kissing in the rain, Shapeless in the dark again. In a hanging garden ,
Change the past. In a
hanging garden, Wearing furs and masks... Fall fall fall fall, Into the
walls. Jump jump out of
time, Fall fall fall fall. Out of the sky, Cover my face as the animals
die. In the hanging
garden, In the hanging garden.
Demonomania (Originally by The Misfits)
Look upon me, I am the beast... Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania,
My father
was a wolf. Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania, My mother was a whore.
You
check and see, Reality of the wolf. It's in the blood, I wanna be the fucking
savior. Humans
are weak, What else you fucking do? Humans are weak, I want your blood.
Demonomania,
Demonomania, Demonomania, My father was a wolf. Demonomania, Demonomania,
Demonomania, My mother was a whore. Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania,
My
mother was a whore. Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania, My father was
a wolf.
Black Sails in the Sunset
Strength Through Wounding
Through our bleeding We are one! Through the darkness breaks the light.
Through the light
unending pain. Deify the wretched ones. Till the Darkness comes again.
Porphyria
I Know.... It's here we retreat, for where else would we go? To great disbelief
there is
somewhere we belong. In negative space supposed flaws go unseen, but our
strength is shown.
IN DARKNESS TOGETHER WE'RE BRINGING THE LIGHT. IN DARKNESS
TOGETHER WE ARE FORMING. THE FIRE TOMORROW IS BORN OF THE NIGHT.
IN DARKNESS TOGETHER WE IGNITE. From all we've been shunned but we've found
a
new home. To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous
eyes, reflections of
fear absolute....All hate what we've become. When daylight forms blinding
walls where do we
go? Days, arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding, binding
walls, where do we
go? The darkness calls.
Exsanguination
Welcome the whole new pain and take comfort in all you've become. I waved
as I passed
myself along the way. I have arrived so unashamed, but my reflection no
longer looks the
same. It seems much dimmer now.....it seems so dim. JUST STUMBLE AND FALL
INTO
A WORLD THAT'S. OVERCROWDED. AND YOU WILL FIND ME. WON'T
RECOGNIZE ME; I WON'T RECOGNIZE MYSELF I have arrived so unashamed, but
all
my senses no longer seem the same. I can sense everything. My sight's so
clear. In an instant,
my life just slipped away. I fought for life the whole time you were holding
me down. You
watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth.
Malleus Maleficarum
Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth.
I'll die drowned by
your standards. Breathe in the life of the summer's death as the orange
and red breathe their first
breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn. Autumn's
flame dances
in my eyes. Set alight for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin
is singed but it heals
my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars. I'm honored by your
hatred. Leaves fall,
we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin. So welcome as it's
burning through.
Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall
as we All Arise.
Narrative Of Soul Against Soul
To The Wounded: I have seen the self image that they've forced you to reduce
to shattered
glass, with the only remaining value lying in its jagged edges. But the
few who warrant
waking for await their recognition. No fear of death but with fear of life,
your weakness fills
everyone. So live. Angels for everyone. For no lack of searching I can't
seem to find one.
Angels in everyone. What of all their promise? Can't seem to find much
more than lies.
Angels in anyone. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. Before I'd
lay me down to
rest, I'd throw away everything to live.
Clove Smoke Catharsis
lean against the night and laugh as i try to scale the walls. ignored futility
fills the air. you're
only there to watch me fall......if only pure sweetness was offered, why's
this bitter taste left
in my mouth? if I could catch my breath, just to exhale, i'd know that
i held it in too
long....from above comes a faint smile. a new vantage, such a view. familiarity
now
disowned. just sit and stare as i walk away.
Lower It (Vinyl Only)
An invitation. Excluding no one. So walk right in and destroy the fucking
place. You've lost
your right to be part of my family. The family that welcomed you. You joined
and left in
disgrace Your flag was flaming. Before it ever started flying. Your flag
was burning Burning
down everyone in true salute. Sense of commitment. A sense of pride. I
heard you say that we
shared a destiny. Now it's plain to see you've got no sense at all. The
name that once honored.
You disgraced and made a mockery I could always see. The smoke from miles
away. I could
always see. The weakness in your eyes. Far away I feel the lies. While
the sky is burning.
You will always be unwanted.
The Prayer Position
Now Peel the skin back from the flesh. Steal the flesh back from the starving
static minds.
From nature we must stray, to clarity we'll climb. Deadly impulse seems
so natural, just look
beyond it and we'll find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand new
line. And in the
distance there's a gathering that no longer seems so far away. Pushed to
our knees so let us
pray, and all together we'll bring the real rain - watch all that's wasted
wash away - so let it
come. Our will be done. Stature retrieved, regain our form. Break free
from instinct that's left
us all confined. From nature we must stray, to clarify we'll climb. Tradition
ingrained, now
impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand new evolution.
Here begins a brand
new line. I can't help but fear, look to my species and and tremble to
think that God is just.....
And in the distance there's a gathering that no longer seems so far away.
No Poetic Device
I've been dreaming. I was lucid. I was dreaming blood was seeping from
my pores. Who'd
believe that it was all my own decision? Cracked faces and medicated smiles.
Set fire to my
home before I turned and walked back in. For every needle open my chest
and insert ten pins. I
just anticipate what awaits when I awake....break... I die in my daydreams.
The gardens have
all been overgrown. I pushed my hand through the thorns just to crush the
final rose. A deadly
secret only I suffer to know, I can't eradicate what awaits when I awake...break.
I die in my
daydreams.
The Last Kiss
hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that you'll see. all by myself,
i'm alone in such
poor company. the deeper I think, the deeper i seem to sink. I can't stop
the insects that are
feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. i broke myself, shattered,
tied a bow around
every piece. you'll love the eyes. have they always shone so vacantly?
the more i show the
less you'll want to know. i can't stop the insects that are feeding , pull
the needles from
beneath my skin. now i'm on display, I am becoming. hurt myself today.
it's all for you do
you like what i'm becoming? cut myself today, it's all for you. i part
the night, flashing,
approaching as i watch you flee. pushed through your panes. seems i've
landed quite
uncomfortably, but as i pass through souls of broken glass, i can't stop
the insects that are
feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. please don't ask me what
I think, trust me,
you don't want to know. please don't ask me to open up. trust me. trust
me. 'cause i can't.
Weathered Tome
They're coming round again. I've returned and they've been waiting. Their
aged offerings
received and returned, passed through wet eyes. I tremble as I feel them
rolling in for, my sins,
the old ghosts know. So chilling as I feel them mourn within my soul. As
the mourning
grows. Unfold before me. Turn back the page again. Twenty-four hours spent
wishing that the
day was never ending. Shadows of glory shading my heart again. Recall the
summer when I
left my heart to cool beneath the shadows. I'm coming round again. I've
returned and noone's
been waiting. I strain my eyes to see but it's so hard to read old tags
on fallen walls.
At A Glance
No haven now as I watch it pour from everywhere, just like the storm that
has come out of
thin air. Gentle caresses, just as paper thin - frail and only - lack the
strength to hold. What I
could go to sleep for days. Would you count the hours, or would your restlessness
consume
fading memories or me? Fall into open arms that offer their protection.
Quick to deny that
they're open to deceit. Long to believe that support will never cease.
Bitter and lonely, those
they've left before. The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest
eyes so quickly
growing cold. Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of
me.
God Called In Sick Today
Let's admire the pattern forming. Murderous filigree. I'm caught in the
twisting of the vine.
Go ascend with ivy, climbing. Ignore and leave for me the headstone crumbling
behind. I can't
help my laughter as she cries. My soul brings tears to angelic eyes. Let's
amend the classic
story, close it so beautifully, I'll let animosity unwind. Steal away the
darkened pages, hidden
so shamefully. I'll still feel the violence of the lines. I can't stand
my laughter as they cry. My
soul brings tears to angelic eyes. And miles away my mother cries. Omnipotence,
nurturing
malevolence.
Midnight Sun (Bonus Track)
What went down on the side of the road? What I saw at the edge of the see.
Only those elements time cannot wear, and they follow. What seeped out
through the cracks in
time, what sucks out the color in me? What awaits beyond infinity? Beyond
and to all time I
stand. What blew in with the great gale? What weighed down the falling
leaves? What came
forth from the remains?
What has always lived and gone unseen? What has caused the night to fall?
Who speaks of eternity? Who awakes to night eternally?
DE PROFUNDIS CLAMAVI (Baudelaire)
O my sole love, I pray thee pity me
From out this dark gulf where my poor heart lies,
A barren world hemmed in by leaden skies
Where horror flies at night, and blasphemy.
For half the year the sickly sun is seen,
The other half thick night lies on the land,
A country bleaker than the polar strand;
No beasts, no brooks, nor any shred of green.
There never was a horror which surpassed
This icy sun's cold cruelty, and this vast
Night like primeval Chaos; would I were
Like the dumb brutes, who in a secret lair
Lie wrapped in stupid slumber for a space...
Time creeps at so burdensome a pace.
All Hallows EP
Fall Children
As the cries start to penetrate still air, this day we celebrate. The wait
now ends. From four
corners smoke plumes into reddened sky. In the face of latern light, my
destiny flies. This day
so hallowed, from here to forever its will I will follow. Tonight will
come to life. Deadened
branches stirred by whispers in the wind. Fall children fill the streets
at dusk, at last, it all will
begin.
Halloween (Misfits Cover)
Bonfires burning bright,
Pumpkin faces in the night,
I remember Halloween.
Dead cats hanging from poles,
Little dead are out in droves,
I remember Halloween.
Brown leafed vertigo,
Where skeletal life is known,
I remember Halloween.
This day anything goes,
Burning bodies hanging from poles,
I remember Halloween,
Halloween
Candy apples and razor blades,
Little dead are soon in graves,
I remember Halloween.
This day anything goes,
Burning bodies hanging from poles,
I remember
Halloween
The Boy Who Destroyed the World
Once the boy who had vibrant glow, but as it goes, someone took it from
him.
One day through the rain I heard him meekly moan, he said "Will you wrap
your arms around
me as I'm falling?" Remember when we were all so beautiful? But since then
we've lost our
glow. They said it hurt their eyes but he would never know that they were
filled with regret as
their own dissipated. He said, "I now feel more desperately alone, even
though they wrapped
their arms around me as I'd fallen." They said it hurt their eyes, but
he would never know that
they were claiming regret as their own...
as their own dissipated.
Totalimmortal
Hope unkown. Sometimes just waking is surreal. I walk right through the
nameless ones. I
know that hope's unknown. Sometimes the water feels so real. As I walk
through it fills my
lungs, my god, I'm drowning. This day never seems to end. This pain, never.
The rage I will
not let go. I hear them calling. I feel them gnawing out holes through
flawless souls. So
alone. Sometimes I swear that I can hear the taunting of the voiceless
ones.
I fear that I alone fear those ceased to feel they're alone inside of this
place.
I am the misplaced. Now every face, it looks familiar... then every face
would melt away
until.. now everyone, do you know, I know your deception?
The Art Of Drowning
Initiation (Instrumental)
The Lost Souls
If you can't stand upon the water I will see you on the ocean floor. When
you blink do you
only find the misery between the lines? Then take my hand and walk with
me. Come to me,
your sanctuary, I'll gladly accept the gift that I've been granted. If
you feel fine, then give it
just a little time I'm sure you'll contract my disease. Look what you've
done to me now,
you've made me perfect. If you can't stand upon the earth then I will meet
you on the other
side. When you blink do you only find the misery weighs down your eyes?
Then take my hand
and sleep with me. Take my hand I'll be everything to you. Take my hand
I'll take everything
from you. I will seep under your skin. I will. I will hold onto your heart.
I will.
The Nephilim
Swing through sadness, tears of joy. Curse the sunlight. Arsenic for the
girls and boys. Drink
the madness, smoke so coy. Smile injection. Serum of a will destroyed.
The seasons change
without me. I remain in shadows growing wings. The spirit song still surrounds
me, in
refrain, in shadows growing wings. Like an angel with two broken wings,
reach the sky again.
Like a devil, meant for better things, I will find my place on high.
Ever and a Day
Lie in comfort of sweet calamity with nothing left to lose. Like in the
darkness, I'm slowly
drowned to sleep nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved for you.
I'd retrace the steps that
lead me here but nothing lives behind me. So I lie in this field bathed
in the light that loves
me, with nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved for you. Will you
be my beloved? Will
you help me to get through? Will you be my destruction? Will you help me
to be through?
Sacrifice Theory
Hear one thousand screams. Hear one thousand voices. A solitary echo. Feel
one thousand
pains, but one is receiving a bloody invitation. Do you want to feel the
warmth? To taste the
life flow? Feel one thousand lost sinking into soft skin. Ingest rejuvenation.
One to consume,
one to renew. Demanded invitation. I offer grace, I offer blood. I offer
everything till my heart
is crystal clear. Do you want to feel the warmth? To taste the life? I
want to taste the life to
taste the life flow.
Of Greetings and Goodbyes
Now ending discreetly, just like a hidden sin, as I go under please tuck
me in. Make me
invisible. This hidden explosion calls for a wandering cast with no direction.
Enter all
monsters let us twist another fairy tale. Go kill the lights, we'll glow
till morning comes. I'll
say goodnight and bow to everyone. Then we go under. The beauties are sleeping
as fruit just
rots away. Today go hungry. Let it begin. Make me invincible. There was
a weeping I carried
down today, a sigh worth keeping. Deep within divinity let's star another
secret show. No need
to worry it is just another monster. No need to fear here in the secret
show. No need to worry I
am just another monster. In you, I'll see me, in the secret show.
Smile
Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have
come to be the
walking enmity. Assimilate into a culture of post morality, from what I've
seen, I hate
humanity. Rot with repulsion. I'll write the world a brand new song. Look
upon your bleak
creation, but is it truly me that's to be the human blasphemy? I'll set
the world on fire and, in
burning light I'll write my first love song and I will feel warmth. Hide
your eyes in heaven, in
the lies. Believe. Relieve. I'll end the world tonight. Overwhelmed with
a deep repulsion for
sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be a walking enmity, for humanity,
the human
blasphemy, I'll end the world tonight.
A Story at Three
Again and again they blend into one, my father the morning pushes through
moonlight love.
So what's sleep? Sleep. I'm tired, so tired, but it seems that there's
someone here with me. We
are the wakeful, wry, watchful. We're awaiting. Deathless ones. A story
at three with the
shrillest of cries. My mind fights with the sparkles in the corner of my
eyes. I hear the
morning choir sing to me their elegy. So beautiful. They sing to me their
elegy. Requiem.
Dream of Waking (Bonus Vinyl Track)
I feel it washing over me, the slow poisonous tide. Pins and needles dance
on me. Sickness
undefined. Now I'm afraid to face the sky. Please someone hear my haunted
cries. Please them
waken me. With eyes sewn shut I still can see all that is surrounding me.
I end up somewhere,
somewhere between... between a dream and motionless reality, will I forever
life? I feel
binding so smoothly. I see myself below. I feel it gnawing, eating me.
Poisonous and slow.
My mind it speeds. My voice has died. God let me make the faintest cry.
Opened up and for
the taking, just one touch and I'll be yours. Opened up wide for the breaking.
Just one touch
and I'll be yours. What's on the other side of the mirror? To cry, I try,
to break the static
keeping me here in between.
The Days of the Phoenix
I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet, candle wax, and
dried up flowers. The
figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling.beckoning to sleep offering
a dream. The
words were as mystical as purring animals. The circle of rage the ghosts
on the stage appeared.
The time was so tangible I'll never let it go. Ghost stories handed down,
reached secret tunnels
below. No one could see me. I fell into yesterday. Our dreams seemed not
far away. I want to
stay. I fell into fantasy. The girl on the wall always waited for me and
she was always
smiling. The teenage death boys, the teenage death girls..and everyone
was dancing. Nothing
could touch us then no one could change us then, and everyone was dancing.
Nothing could
hurt us then, no one could see us then, and everyone was dancing. Everyone
was dancing.
Catch a Hot One
Let's tap your heart so we can paint the walls and see if anybody likes
the tone or the pain.
The hungry eyes waiting for life flash, now they're gonna see it. Open
your veins so we can
make a pool and bathe and see if anyone complains of the stain. Let's strip
you down so we
can see you old scars. Now you're gonna feel it. Show me how to shine now.
Have you ever
turned to dust? I saw an insect learn to fly; its form was scorned. Have
you ever seen the
kingdom of the flys? I saw it stay in sovereignty. Have you lost the sense
of touch? Have you
ever turned to dust? Let's lift you up so we can see how fast you fall.
We always thought that
you could fly; now you'll crawl. The lack of loyalty you thought you once
felt, now you're
gonna feel it. Now show me how to shine.
Wester
I can feel you waiting for me as the sun retreats to the hills and I, beneath
the blanket of a
burning sky, wrap myself within. Embraced by dead leaves as the rain leaves
trails of black
down my face, I creep through the twilight to that hidden place beyond
the lonely. I'll meet
you tonight in the whispers when no one's around. Nothing can stop us now.
Tonight in the
whispers where we won't be found. I can feel you dreaming of me and the
time when our steps
are retraced and I creep through the twilight to that hidden place, beyond
the lonely, I'll meet
you. Beneath a dream, lost in a dream tonight. Smile.
6 to 8
Six figures enter; they've come to destroy the world. They've called together
this storm almost
every night. I awake in another place. A familiar voice with a stranger's
face speaks more
unheard words. What new friends will the day bring? One for one thousand
acquainted. What
new home will the night bring? When it all comes down you just throw the
bones. On the
way I saw five hours of sleep but your fire makes it all worth while. On
the way I wrote words
for you to keep. On the way, I saw myself. Lost myself along the way.
The Despair Factor
Along the path where the stream is talking, I breathe the mist and continue
walking. The wood
it whispers in a language of it's own. As a sigh escaped my lips I feel
the light caress of
fingertips that steal away the breath and leave me on my own, waiting by
the stairs. Waiting, I
despair. Do I hear the hollow sound, footsteps resounding on this frozen
ground, or the
familiar disappointment of the echoes of my own? Somehow I ended up here
in between,
where there is always the comfort of knowing I'll never be seen when I
fall. I wait for just one
touch.and I fall.Weightless, Endless, Faithless, I'll adore you. A single
touch before I fade.
Painless let me pass through.
Morningstar
I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls. Who
will be the first to
begin their fall? Or will we become one? Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon
the stage? Am I your anything? I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing
bright before descent
and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me. And I
don't want to die
tonight; will you believe in me? And I don't want to fall into the light.
Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me? I don't want to die tonight. Will you.
1. Miseria Cantare (The Beginning)
Nothing from no where i'm no one at all. Radiate,
recognize one silent call as we all form one dark flame. Incinerate, love
your hate, your faith lost, you are now one of us.
2. The Leaving Song Pt. 2
Don't waste your touch, you wont feel anything.
Or were you sent to save me? I've thought too much, you wont find
anything worthy of redeeming. Yo he estado aqui muchas veces antes y regreso
to break down and cease all feeling, burn now what once was breathing.
Reach out and you may take my hear away. Imperfect cry and scream in ecstasy
but what befalls the flawless? Look what I've built. It shines so beautifully!
Now watch as it destroys me. Y regreso aqui otra vez y comienzo to break
down and cease all feeling, burn now what once was breathing. Reach out
and you may take my heart away. I left it all behind and never said good-bye.
I left it all to die. I saw its birth. I watched it grow. I felt it change
me. I took the life. I ate it slow. Now it consumes me.
3. Bleed Black
I am exploring the inside. I find it desolate.
I do implore these confines now as they penetrate, "recreate me." I'm hovering
throughout time. I crumble in these days. I crumble, I cannot find reflection
in these days. If you listen, listen close, beat-by-beat, you can hear
when the heart stops. I saved the pieces when it broke and ground them
all to dust. I am destroyed by the inside. I disassociate. I hope to destroy
the outside. It will alleviate and elevate me. Like water flowing into
lungs, I'm flowing through these days. As morphine tears through deadened
veins. I'm numbing in these days. I know what died that night. It could
never be brought back to life once again, I know. I know I died that night
and I'll never be brought back to life. Once again, I know. If you listen,
listen close, beat-by-beat, you can hear when the heart stops. I saved
the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust.
4. Silver and Cold
I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
and found you on the way. Now, it is silver and silent. It is silver and
cold. You, in somber resplendence, I hold. Your sins into me, oh, my beautiful
one now. Your sins into me. As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble
a prayer and I'll beg for forgiveness. Your sins into me, oh, my beautiful
one. Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into
me as you're longing to sing. So I will paint you in silver. I will wrap
you in cold. I will lift up your voice as I sink. Cold in life's throws.
I'll fall asleep for you. I only ask you turn away. I only ask you turn
as they seep into me, oh, my beautiful one.
5. Dancing Through Sunday
Will you join me in this dance of misery, cradled
in impossibility? Swooning, I am swept away, swept of my feet. With step-by-step
we take the lead as drop-by-drop we start to bleed. And we dance in misery,
all lost in the arms of our misery. Swept off our feet by our misery, we're
swept into shadows. Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
Let me hide within your black, the still inside your eyes, Deafened, caught
within a cry so sensual. As step-by-step I separate, while breath-by-breath
I suffocate. So who will follow? Who is the lead? I know I'll leave a stain
because I bleed as we dance. We all dance. We all have no chance in this
horrid romance.
6. Girls Not Grey
I'll lay me down tonight much further down, swim in the calm tonight. This
art does drown. What follows me as the whitest lace of light just begs
to be imbrued? What follows will swallow whole. What follows has lead me
to this place where I belong, with all erased. All insects sing tonight,
the coldest sound. I'd send god's grace tonight, could it be found. I'll
lay me down tonight much further down... watch stars go out tonight. On
sinking ground I'll lay me down. What follows will swallow whole.
7. Death of Seasons
Of late it's harder just to go outside, to leave this deadspace with hatred
so alive. Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay. Killed
by the weakness, but forced to return. Turn it off. I watch the stars as
they fall from the sky. I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying.
I feel the fallen stars encircle me now, as they cry. Out there so quickly
grows malignant tribes. Posthuman extinction excels unrecognized. Feeling
surrounded, so bored with mortality, I decay. All of this hatred is scuking
real. Turn it on. It won't be all right despite what they say. Just watch
the stars tonight as they disappear, disintegrate. And I disintegrate 'cause
this hate is scuking real. And I hope to shade the world as stars go out
and I disintegrate.
8. The Great Disappointment
I can remember a place I used to go. Chrysanthemums of white, they seemed
so beautiful. I can remember. I searched for the amaranth. I'd shut my
eyes to see. Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones. I knew
they would appear...saw not a single one. Oh, how I smiled then, waiting
so patiently. I'd make a wish and bleed. While I waited I was wasted away.
I can remember...dreamt them so vividly, soft creatures draped in white,
light kisses gracing me. I can remember when I first realized dreams were
the only place to see them. While I waited I was wasting away. Hope was
wasting away. Faith was wasting away. I was wasting away. I never, never
wanted this. I always wanted to believe, but from the start I'd been deceived.
I never, never wanted this. Inside a crumbling effigy, so dies all innocence.
But you promised me...
9. Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings)
Raise high monolithic statues so fragile. As they fall, I am ever enthralled. Gaze, lie and smirk in time. You arrogance will suit you well 'til fashion is dispelled. As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion, you're going out forever unknown. These waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile because you're dying to become forever unknown. From above a rain of ashes descends. Anathema I will remain, forever will remain. From below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn. Without habitation. You'll never find a soul inside, no life, but nothing's died. No lights, but quite the show (just as long as no one ever knows all motion is pantomime.) Dancing in the rain of descending ash, dancing on your grave, I'll see you all falling. Dancing in the rain of descending ash, dancing in your dust. I'll see you all falling. I'd stop it, had you a heart.
10. This Celluloid Dream
Calling tears from deep inside, oh, you're so exquisite. And in the mirror,
all midnight eyes. Oh, if I could remain, but it's just a visit. All midnight
eyes read "vacancy." Twisted, twisting. To the lovely dancing lights, I
begged, "May I cut in?" but they never stopped playing "their song." Of
a joyous song they sing, I've heard whispers. On a freezing note, I resonate.
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end, just like a memory,
it twists me. You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic, onto the
melting boy and melt away. You light as
gently, you're so cinematic. Bathed in your
radiance, I melt. In the glitter, in the dark, sunk into velvet praying
this will never end. In the shadow of a star, in static pallor, I realized
I never began. All the colors upon leaving will turn to grey.
11. The Leaving Song
Walked away, heard them say, "Poison hearts will never change. Walk away
again." Turned away in disgrace. Felt the chill upon my face cooling from
within. It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky when you're staring at
the cracks. It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered. You
walked away, heard them say, "Poisoned hearts will never change. Walk away
again." All the cracks will lead right to me and all the cracks will crawl
right through me, and I fell apart as I walked away, heard them say, "Poisoned
hearts will never change." Walked away again. Turned away in disgrace.
Felt the chill opon my face cooling me from within.
12. ...But Home Is Nowhere
Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun to understand my intimate is no one. When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites? They cut the cast, the music, and the lights. This is my line. This is eternal. How did I ever end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural. My prayers to disappear, ungranted in dead time left me disowned, absent of grace, marked as infernal. To this nature, so unnatural. I remain alone. Twenty-six years end. Still speaking in these tongues. Such revelations while understood by no one. When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace? Please clear the house of ill-acquired taste. Give me something. Give me something. Give me something real. I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle. Everyday another small piece can't be found. I lay strewn across the floor pieced up in sorrow. The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit. Pieced together incomplete and empty.
The Poems
We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields under the trees, screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone. You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward, and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.
This Time Imperfect
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay. Forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say. I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn
blue. There are no flowers, no, not this time. There will be no angels
gracing the lines, just these stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but
I'm too weak. I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this
hurts me. I cannot stay here. I cannot leave. Just like all I loved, I'm
make-believe. Imagined heart, I disappear. Seems no one will appear here
and make me real. There are no flowers, no, not this time. There will be
no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find. I'd show a
smile, but I'm too weak. I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how
much this hurts me. I'd tell you how it haunts me. Cuts through my day
and sinks into my dreams. You don't care that it haunts me. There are no
flowers, no, not this time. There will be no angels gracing the lines,
just these stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak. I'd
share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me...just
how much this hurts me...just how much you...